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Randiculous42
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Name: fuck this
Location: Rochester, New York, United States
Birthday: 2/20/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: Someone to Love; Best Friend Steve; Trent Reznor; Being a Boy; Nine Inch Nails; Self Pain and Anguish; Tech Crew; Stage-Managing; GSA!; Depeche Mode; Jamie McMurray; NASCAR; Anime; Fanfiction - Yaoi and Yuri Style; Whatever catches my fancy; Computer Stuff; Friday the 13th; and Things that Would Scare You.
Expertise: Yaoi and Yuri fanfiction; Making ugly HTML pretty; The arts - Literature, Art, Music; House Right Spot; Emo Josh and Yppah BAKA the Sound Board; Hurting Myself; and More things that would scare you.
Occupation: myself
Industry: living organisms
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AIM:  randiculous42
MSN: aaka42@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/9/2004
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| a year later.
and once again, trying to deal with missing close ffriends. when alban left, i had no secrets, i told him what i wanted to tell him, no fear.
i should do that again. to the friends i won't see.
life is about gettign out of your comfort zone.
i have a seeking suspicion im going to be using a lot of contraband this summer. how else will i deal? | | |
| I have not used Xanga in a terribly long time... my outlook on life has greatly changed... and idk i really feel like getting back into blogging, it being May 1st and all. (okay, a year is more than a long-ass time :P)
The frenchies left today. and god i'm just dying already... I dunno what to do with myself and i miss Alban so mad bad already... mrrr in justa few days he'll be home and online, right? I had such a good time with him this past week... we've got to stay friends forever. I'm totally promising to pick my fucking french up off the ground and put some effort into it. I'm into Naz now and I am so going back to Rennes and i am so close to being who i really am. Today is an excellent day. i has the best night ever and i'm really really sad today... I got used to having him around and now it's like AHHH I'm in shock! He knows nearly more about me than my current closest friends (which i'd say is due largely in part to his desire to continually steal my phone and read my text messages. i probably wasn't really gonna tell him i liked him... just be friends you know... cuz i'ma chickenshit and all :P
I hope i didn't scare him or anything... idk how to best explain the way i am when i like someone... meh... but i've totally got my brain working on this one. yeah, he's really really attractive, i can't lie about that. but dude you can still have attractive friends, and i feel a strong friend connection that i really like. so you know how i like to handle stuff... i'd like to be good friends now and i hope that everything settles down and i can really tell him my whole story and then of course we can so hang out in Rennes, or he could come to visit me in college in Rochester or something too. idk... i'm just totally game for playing it all by ear. Putain! i'm strange.
So anyway... I'm off to find a newer better place to blog... and naturally i have to re-design my whole blog. mrrr... i just need to pick an internet space and use it.
shit i need to find some new fun music. anyone know any mad good eurotechno? or bands that are as rad as Nine Inch Nails?
I have no idea why I'm bothering to ask, i know no one goes to xanga anymore lol.
à bientôt, Chaperon Rouge WOOT! yes, i am insane.
\--/_ love you all _\--/
ps: i need to fucking cut my hair and dye it. I'm leaning towards a red-based purple, but everyone i tlak to wants to die their hair purple too, and you know how i hate copycats! ...any particular shade or color-pattern i should go with? just the bangs? all of it? hm? Just don't pick one i've already done (electric lava, pillarbox red, electric lizard, electric sunshine [discontinued i think])
http://www.dream-gate.co.uk/semi-permanent-hair-dye-swatch.htm
by ze way, I'm a pig.
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| mrrrr... NIN in Hawaii in September = US Tour Soon??? mooo i say yes. | | |
| mrrrr... NIN should come here again so i don't have to get out the giagantic magnet of trent-sticking doom.
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| xanga used to be cool. people used to use it and read it. not anymore.
oh the irony though, i wouldn't mind if people read it... only now there's probably one one person who does, and that's a specific person that shall not be named by name, nor any logical anagram since it's too easy. My Bertha, that's you, if you're reading.
anyways... point being. being alive and human is probably the suckiest of all sucks. i listened to "still" today, my silent cry, it is, but no one seems to get that. i also "slept" in my usually half-covered frozen heap, dirty clothes and all. oh well. whatever. meaningless existence still seems to go on, i just don't know why anymore. it's like Primer, it stays on and just builds sustains even when it's turned off, and you just don't figure out how if you did something that should make it stop - why does it still go on? that's life. i've flipped the switch, i'm still going, but will i ever get around to disconnecting the battries too?
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